A mental health campaigner who launched a viral search for the Good Samaritan who talked him out of suicide is set to spend Christmas in hospital.
Jonny Benjamin, 27, has revealed he will be undergoing treatment for schizoaffective disorder over the festive period after his health deteriorated.
Speaking in a video uploaded to his YouTube channel, Mr Benjamin said he had been experiencing recurring suicidal thoughts.
Commenting on his ongoing battle with depression, he said this week: "I've been making plans for my suicide and as a result I'm going back into hospital. I'm really not doing very well.
"Just when I think it can't get any worse, it somehow seems to. Really am at rock bottom. I see my suicide as the only escape from it."
He continued: "I can't be around anyone anymore. When I am, I'm shaking, trembling, even around the people that I love. That's how bad the anxiety has got, I can't even be around the people I love.
"And so I see the only way around that is to take my life, because I don't think I'm going to get better.
<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-partner="tweetdeck">Thank-you for your tweets. I'm back in hospital and will be in here over Christmas. Really struggling but determined to overcome this.— Jonny Benjamin (@MrJonnyBenjamin) <a rel="nofollow" target="_blank" href="https://twitter.com/MrJonnyBenjamin/status/546717818637402112" class="body-link" data-vars-item-name="BL-2930311-https://twitter.com/MrJonnyBenjamin/status/546717818637402112" data-vars-event-id="c23">December 21, 2014</a>
"I absolutely cannot stand myself being in this skin, hearing my voice. I hate myself - how can you recover from that? I don't know if I can."
Hundreds of his Twitter followers subsequently sent him messages of support.
He replied: "Thank-you for your tweets. I'm back in hospital and will be in here over Christmas. Really struggling but determined to overcome this."
Anyone experiencing mental health problems can contact The Samaritans.
